Two important points I need to make.
1.We have been on the list for a little over 8 months!
2. I have officially hit "crazy" mode.
I actually thought that I was going to skip this stage of the wait.
The part where you begin checking your phone repeatedly.
The part where you wake up every morning wondering if it is going to be "the" day.
But here I am.
Having dreams about the referral call and seeing his face.
Having a small anxiety attack every time my phone rings during the day.
Making sure the house is clean enough for our "referral party".
Looking at my patient schedule everyday and planning out what to do in case I have to cancel appointments.
Seeing everything as a "sign" that the call is coming soon.
My stomach feels like butterflies are just living there.
Everyday around 4, I count the day as a loss.
Every night, I hope it will come tomorrow.
I am sick of "crazy" mode.
I am ready for baby mode.